The month that follows, is a bit dark for me, probably caused by consuming to much alcohol. Thankfully i had some house mates, who kept my mind busy. They were friends from the friend. They and Sara spend a lot of time together when i was out bush, and they were still in Alice. maybe i could find some more missing pieces of the puzzle, and they were in need for a bit more luxury then a campground. Skip and Kelly stayed 2 months here in the spare room of the big house and a good thing was i didn`t have to worry about food, Kelly was a good chef.
They also took care of cellie , when i did a few more bushtrips.
We had a good time, spend several times in Bojangles, melankas (partybar) ,places where alcohol is consumed in large amounts. At one of those places i met a girl . I didn`t felt alone anymore. We spend some time together, some picnics at Wigley`s waterhole, nights out on alcohol, those combinations helped me forget what happened.
I still had contact with my wife, on occasions on the phone.
It was hard, and still is. A part of yourself is complete destroyed. So much questions and emotions are going trough your head. The past was gone together with his dreams. It`s a funny thing, thou. I always looked at the coat of arms of Australia, where the emu and the kangaroo holding the shield, two animals that can`t walk backwards. I understood the value of that symbol now pretty good, don`t look back in the past, just walk forwards. It was something where i hang on to, even today.
I had something to look forward to, Koen and Katrina are having there wedding in Arlie beach in December, and i was invited. the perfect time to have a break and holiday.
I want to place a special word of thanks to my friends, and family who supported me in those bad times . Thanks Henk and Linda to check frequently how i was doing, Thanks sis to stand behind your brother , no matter what.
They also took care of cellie , when i did a few more bushtrips.
We had a good time, spend several times in Bojangles, melankas (partybar) ,places where alcohol is consumed in large amounts. At one of those places i met a girl . I didn`t felt alone anymore. We spend some time together, some picnics at Wigley`s waterhole, nights out on alcohol, those combinations helped me forget what happened.I still had contact with my wife, on occasions on the phone.
It was hard, and still is. A part of yourself is complete destroyed. So much questions and emotions are going trough your head. The past was gone together with his dreams. It`s a funny thing, thou. I always looked at the coat of arms of Australia, where the emu and the kangaroo holding the shield, two animals that can`t walk backwards. I understood the value of that symbol now pretty good, don`t look back in the past, just walk forwards. It was something where i hang on to, even today.I had something to look forward to, Koen and Katrina are having there wedding in Arlie beach in December, and i was invited. the perfect time to have a break and holiday.
I want to place a special word of thanks to my friends, and family who supported me in those bad times . Thanks Henk and Linda to check frequently how i was doing, Thanks sis to stand behind your brother , no matter what.
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